100 Things About Me

1. My favorite colors used to be pink and green, but I have shifted significantly towards purple and blue over the last year.
2. I am a frustrated wanna-be interior designer.
3. I have never lived in a home I owned.
4. I never wanted to own a home until 2004, when I inherited a piano.
5. The piano is being stored for me.
6. Most of my belongings are currently in storage.
7. I make so little money that, if it weren’t for my boyfriend, I’d be homeless right now.
8. I make more on unemployment than the starting salaries of a lot of jobs.
9. I’m really into yoga right now.
10. I used to be a ballet dancer.
11. I don’t look it.
12. Well, maybe I look it, but I don’t act it.
13. I love to sing, but never tried to “get a gig.”
14. Due to a lot of flattering feedback, I’m rethinking my position on that.
15. I’m 34.
16. I look 24.
17. I get carded a lot.
18. It’s starting to get old.
19. My boyfriend and I met at my last job.
20. He is the only thing that made going to work worthwhile.
21. Oh, besides the money. Which is all gone now.
22. I was married for three years.
23. It was a sad divorce, not an angry or ugly one.
24. Sometimes I still wish we could have made it work.
25. Other times I remind myself that it takes two to tango, buster.
26. My current relationship is by far the healthiest one I’ve ever had.
27. I’ve had, on and off, about 15 years worth of therapy.
28. I was engaged at seventeen to an abusive, borderline alcoholic redneck.
29. It took three years and a call to the police to finally get rid of him.
30. I majored in acting in college, and minored in writing.
31. I wish it was the other way around.
32. My acting department thought they were the best in the country.
33. They weren’t.
34. I moved to New York because I got a partial scholarship to a performing arts academy.
35. They thought they were all that.
36. They weren’t.
37. I never had any desire to be a professional musical theatre performer, despite my training.
38. All I’ve ever wanted was an apartment in New York, a cat, and some really great friends.
39. Two out of three ain’t bad.
40. I’m a quarter Irish, a quarter Italian, a quarter German, about an eighth Norweigian, and the rest is Spanish/Polish/English.
41. I look German Irish.
42. I’m a great cook, like my mother is and my grandmothers were.
43. I was very close to my paternal grandmother.
44. I was freakishly close to my maternal grandparents.
45. They have all passed on.
46. I feel unbearable lonely at times.
47. When I cook, I can feel my Grandma’s spirit moving within me.
48. I wish I had more time to cook.
49. When I sing, I feel like I’m flying with an angel’s arm around my waist.
50. When I dance, I feel like the sexiest shit alive.
51. My mother and I had a nightmarish relationship when I was a child.
52. We’re much better now.
53. She’s on Prozac.
54. My father is a Mental Health Professional.
55. He has won National Awards.
56. I am the proudest daughter alive.
57. I’m even prouder when he plays the guitar and sings.
58. I hope to have a daughter someday.
59. If I have a son, I hope he grows up to be a drag queen so we can still shop together.
60. I am a feminist.
61. I am a Unitarian Universalist.
62. I am a practicing neo-pagan and member of CUUPS.
63. I don’t wear it on my sleeve.
64. When I found my faith, enormous doors opened inside of me.
65. I have learned more about myself, the world, and how to love and be loved in the last two years of my life than most people do in their entire lifetimes.
66. I know I have so much more to learn.
67. I believe that friendships are work, but shouldn't feel like work.
68. I’ve had a lot of selfish and toxic people in my life.
69. I have Florence Nightingale syndrome.
70. Thankfully, so does my boyfriend.
71. My mother is an incredible actress.
72. I am floored by the amount I have learned from her, and how alike we are.
73. I believe in genetic memory.
74. I believe in Astrology.
75. I believe that a Tarot or Astrology reading is only as good as the reader.
76. There’s a lot of idiots in the world.
77. There’s a lot of assholes too.
78. I try to make my corner of the world a better place.
79. I wish the republican party had more John McCains running it.
80. I wish the democratic party had more Dianne Feinsteins running it.
81. I am allergic to bees and wasps, and utterly terrified of them.
82. I am also allergic to pollen, mold, mildew, tree pollen, and fresh-cut grass.
83. I have been prescribed every antihistamine that has been on the market since 1973.
84. I am also allergic to certain kinds of fabric softener, soaps, fabric dyes, perfumes, and dogs.
85. If I had been born 100 years ago, I wouldn’t have survived the first year of my life.
86. I hate being cold, and I hate bugs.
87. I have no idea where I’d be happiest on earth, but I sure was happy in New York City.
88. My favorite place in the world to be is in a music club, with a great single malt in my hand and a table full of friends.
89. I lie like a rug. My favorite place in the world to be is on the stage at that music club, singing my heart out.
90. If I never sang anywhere but small, intimate music clubs and churches, I’d die happy.
91. I have ridiculously thick dark red naturally curly hair.
92. It runs in the family.
93. Normally, it hangs just past my waist.
94. When I feel like rebelling, I cut it to about shoulder length and have it blown straight.
95. Nobody recognizes me then.
96. I love that.
97. I can’t drive without glasses.
98. I hate wearing my glasses, so I got rimless ones that are practically invisible.
99. I keep losing them.
100. These 100 things will, at best, only give you a sliver of an idea of who I am.